I’ve been in college for three years and I just realized that I don’t know what I want to do after I graduate. Like, I honestly have no idea…
When I started college, I wanted to be a doctor and own my own practice. My ego loved everyone’s reactions once they heard my goals. Looking back, that’s probably what kept me going as long as I did. I managed to endure three long years of Bio 121 and 122, Chemistry 121 and 122, Organic Chemistry, Physics, Cell Biology and Microbiology…only to find out that all of this was in vain. After having the opportunity to work briefly in the health care field, I realized that I didn’t want anything to do with a hospital. If I was a freshman or a sophomore, this wouldn’t be a problem, but I’m a junior. I’m too far to start over, but I want to pursue something else. I want a new lease on life.
My doubts happened a couple of months ago. Fast forward to the present time, and I am still in the same spot. I’ve kept the same major, but my career plans have changed multiple times. It took me a couple months to accept it, but I realized that it’s okay to be unsure. A lot of people may side-eye me for making changes to my life at such a time, but I have to go with my gut on this one. If pursuing an MD isn’t my dream, then why would I continue to pursue it? At this rate, if I continue down the pre-medical track, I would be living someone else’s dream, and not my own.
I wish I could tell you that I found my niche, but I haven’t. However, I’ve made the decision to just take it day by day and focus on the present. I know, easier said then done, right? Trust me, I still have my days where I’m completely bummed out about not knowing. However, instead of focusing on the negative aspects of not having any career plans, I plan to focus on the positive. For example, instead of getting depressed about not having an “earthly” purpose, I can get excited about the fact that there is still a “spiritual” purpose. I can get excited about the fact that I still have life. My beliefs tell me that as long as I’m focused on my “spiritual” purpose, my earthly purpose will reveal itself.
Until then, I’ll be blogging and pressing on. Be Blessed everyone:)